W.H.Y

Why is it so hard 4 you to understand,
I don't want to be with you anymore,
You gave me only your hand,
You didn't give yourself and I demand war,

You betrayed me and I am falling apart,
You said you loved me but you hated me,
You weren't longer my guard,
Being my enemy is what you wanted to be,

While I was crying the pain hurt every time again like hell,
It didn't stop, it was your way of loving someone,
How come you don't know, tears are what you sell,
Don't you understand the damage you have done,

I still love you, I don't know why,
First I was afraid to stand up and tell you how I felt,
Now I am afraid, I don't know anymore if I'm still standing high,
I shiver when I think about how you yelled,

But I still long for your touch,
And as I'm imagining,
I still love you very much,
From your love I could sing,

I think it's wrong,
Desiring a man that once wounded my body and soul,
But I've been with you 4 so long,
I don't want to speak, everyday you desperate call,

I don't understand why, you first desert me,
And then you only want to be with me, it's the,
Question why, I am so depressive and still love you,
It doesn't make sense, Oh why, why, why, why do I still want you?

Why, why, why, why, why, I keep thinking,
I realize, in your love I'm sinking.
Written by Charley

At night, I lay cozy in my warm bed,
With my hands behind my head.
I have a wish I hope comes true, and I think it might.
To have you beside me in my bed at night.
Going to sleep I try.
I can't and know why.
Relax and imagine holding you until you are next to me, it does seem.
I fall asleep knowing I'll be with you in tonight's dream.

Never trust
Never trust a smiling face
Because it is not what you think it is

The face can smile
But the soul can cry

So never trust a smiling face
Because it is not what you think
you see.


Forever written in my mind
So many times..
I see you smile.
I see you cry.

That sweet smile.
I can not forget that smile.

Hear you laugh..
See you smile..
Hear you cry..

The noises and that smile..
For ever written in my mind, heart and soul..

I can not forget you.
I can not stop thinking of you.
Never.

i have 58 students in my generation in Smaeli. And we call ourselves “The Third Generation of Smaeli” or d’TeeNs. I love them all, eventhough we have various culture, mothertongue, charateristic, and way of thinking. We always be the best generation in our school. We joy happy and sad moments together. We always be one. Even the hardest wave couldn’t break up our brethren.
But now, we just have 53 students in our generation. 2 students moved out and 3 students dropped out. And off course it makes us sad. Till someday we had a problem. I don’t know what’s goin’ on and why is it happened. And it makes us finally break off.
Actually, i don’t like if it happen. Coz actually i really hope that someday we’ll joy our years together again. Not in ego anymore. Not in angre anymore. It’s not bout who’s wrong or right but it’s just bout us and our generation. I just want us to forget it and try to continue our best brethren like before. I know and i realize that they’re very valuable for me.
I still remember our slogan for d’TeeNz. “Satu Rasa Sama Rasa, Sama Sama Manrasa-rasa”. Hwehehe..... that’s i want to shown off to the other. But, i couldn’t find it right now. I want to show to the whole school and world that we have the best brethren ever in this world. That there’s nothing could separate us.