Betrayer and the Lying, scum sucking, beast.

This is about my bastard of a cockroach backstabbing EX-boyfriend. Enjoy!

You said our love was different.
That it would never fall apart,
That from the one moment you saw me,
You always would give me your full heart,
You were pushy,
You were disgusting,
In the end you thought you could be,
The betrayer,
The non-love-believer,
Basically the me.
Now I'll never again have the chance to go back,
to convince myself of the lies,
But I am the despiser,
And its now you I despise..
If you died tomorrow I'd laugh in your dead face,
And scream forever to the whole human race,
That never betray a betrayer,
It back fires in the end,
Especially if you go from loving the betrayer,
To loving best friend.

i'M tHe siLence aNd dArknEss oF thE niGhT

The night is thick with darkness
I stand and hear the silence
No one can see the pain I am in
Yet, the morning will still come in
The night is thick with silence
I stand in nothing but darkness
No one can see the emotional pain I am in
Yet, the morning will still come in
As I stand with pain throughout my body
I want to ask why me? Yet I know I do have the answer
So I stand and just let it be
I stand with tears on my face
For pain has once again come to me
I am the darkness of the night
For no one seems to care about me
The night is often neglected
For no one is awake to see it’s beauty
As I stand in pain from head to toe
No one cares about me
The night is like a mystery
With things yet to discover
Yet no one cares to take that adventure
To see what the night has to hold
They only want to see the light of the day
For that is their comfort zone
So I stand in silence with the night
And wonder, Can anyone see my heavy load?
The darkness of night will soon be over
If only for a little while
Yet this beast that lies within me
Is there through darkness and light
Can no one see the pain I am in?
Do they even dare to come near?
Can no one understand this beast within me?
Do they even know who I am?
The emotional pain is harder
It will last for all eternity
I carry the baggage of that pain
Do they know they make it harder?
I wonder if they really love me
I wonder do they really care
They sure don’t seem to show it
They don’t seem to know I am there
I carry this beast with me always
I carry it with a heavy heart
I sit in silence and listen
I am the silence and darkness of the night

eLiMinaTion???

Now, I’m thinking in sorrow… is there one of my friends have to be dropped out from our school???

I love this school. But, I hate it for this rule. How could you just let your friends go in a second?? Within you’ve been friends in 2 years… I couldn’t imagine…

Today at 14 o’clock, my school held a conference between the teachers and stake holders. It’s about “which one of us has to be eliminated”. That’s very terrible. And the result will be noticed this evening. And I don’t want that time come. Frankly speaking, I really disagree with “elimination rule” in my school.

I think, Elimination rule in every school has to be vanished. That’s not their false if they are stupid or have bad act in school. That’s school’s duty to bring them and guide them to the right way. Not to eliminate them. Because, it’s unrealized that the school has throw the student out and ignore their duty to guide the students. It’s undeniable that the students going to school to get guidance. The students won’t go to school if they don’t need guidance, if they’ve been clever.

In fact, with eliminate the student; the school has made one of country young generation become useless. It means one of country future has been lost. And of course it will increase number of jobless. Owhh…. Pure we are..

CapeK Gw

i'm so tired.. tugas numpuk... mana remedial ikutan numpuk..
tyuz kimia mesti ngulang dari semester lalu..
mesti buat presentasi lagi..
tyuz mulai dari hidrokarbon,minyak bumi,larutan elektrolit dan non elektrolit, sama REDOKS juga...
waaaahh.... mana ngumpulin tugas harus besok....
capee dech...
it's make me stressed...
capek dech jadi siswi....
mudah2an cepet lulusnya....
bisa gag yach taon depan lulus dengan baek....???
takut juga kalo gag lulus...
ahh.... I don't care..... My duty is study now!!!!!
jia you!!!! Ganbatte ne!!!!!
dO my BesT.....

i'm 17 YeaRs oLd

As I was cleaning today this poem on folded notebook paper fell out of the sleeve of an old college shorthand book I was giving away to Goodwill.
My hands held out waiting
For a blessing from the Lord
My eyes searching 'round me
Things above me were ignored
With my arms growing heavy
And my heart wearing down
My head slowly lowered
My smile became a frown
My eyes came to rest
On something lying in my hands
Something I had never noticed
But now there it stands
A small and fragrant blossom
Had been there all along
Its fragrance filled the airIts color was a song
How could I never notice
That such beauty had been there
But my eyes had been elsewhere
My nose in the air
Only when exhaustion
Forced me to look down
Could this blessing from above
Eventually be found
What I had been waiting for
Had been there for some time
But through pride and selfishness
Was never really mine
Until the moment came
When in exhaustion and defeatI laid all my trouble
At my Saviour's feet
Only then did I realizeAll the Lord had shown
When I asked Him for some bread
I shouldn't look for a stone.

WHAT IS FRIENDSHIP FOR ME

Friendship. We often use this word. But what does it in fact mean? Are you able to answer this question? Who is a real friend? Do you think that friendship will never die? Have you ever thought about it?
What does friendship mean to you?
It is something what is very valuable but you can't buy it. It must be protected. You have to take care of friendship because it is very easy to loose a friend but after that it is much more difficult to recover it again. It is like a treasure. You must keep it in safety. If you don't, it will not last anymore. Friendship is soft.Who do you think a good friend is?
It's someone who you get on well with. Who you like to be with and who you would miss if you lost him. It's somebody who stands by you if you have some problems, who gives you advice, who has always time for you.
Do you think you have many friends?
I have many friends-many people who I know, but not many good friends.
Do you think a good friend can let you down?
Yes, I think so. Somebody seems to be your good friend, but if you have some problems, he/she isn't there for you. But in this case he/she isn't your good friend.
Would you do anything for your friend?
It depends on the friend and on the thing I should do. I think that I will help my friend with problems he/she has to go through. He/she has to feel that somebody in the world loves him/her and takes care for him/her. If you have a good friend, your problems seem to be smaller and it is much easier for you because you know you can always reckon on somebody.
Do you spend much time with your friends?
Well, I meet them almost every day because many of my friends go to the same school as I do. We also meet each other in our free time. My parents are sometimes angry because they think I don't spend enough time with my family. But they are really nice and accept it. I am with my friends especially during holidays. I want to be with somebody in my age.
Do your parents like your friends?
They don't know them very well, but I think that they like most of them. But I know many families arguing about this topic.
Do you know what they think of them?
I haven't asked. If they are speaking about them, it is usually in a good way. If they thought something bad about them, they would certainly say it.
And is it easy for you to make friends?
Maybe yes. Everybody says I am very sociable and talkative think I am quite reserved to strangers. But if I make a friend, I am sure it will last.